Polyester Gym Shorts & Losing My Dad.

DadMy dad died today.  18 years ago.

I still remember the call in the shockingly early morning hours.  To this day I’m terrified if my phone rings after 1am.  I remember my mom’s voice and I remember hearing someone scream and thinking how primal it was.  I didn’t know it was coming from my own mouth.  I remember my roommate having to take the phone because I couldn’t breathe, let alone speak.  I remember going next door and crawling in to my boyfriend’s bed and asking him to not say anything.  The day before, a friend that lived on our floor in the dorm had found out her best friend had died of a heart attack at 19.  My boyfriend just looked at her and said “that sucks.”.  I remembered lecturing him on how callous that sounded and how god forbid anything bad ever happened to me, would he please just remain silent?  Who knew it would be less than 24 hours before that request would need to be honored. Continue reading “Polyester Gym Shorts & Losing My Dad.”

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Nexy Jamin & The Summer of 2014 Part II

I decided to hit “Send”.  I shouldn’t have.  It had been impulsive.  I had written something stupid like “I’m the person you’re looking for.” or a statement that was equally lame.  I instantly regretted it.  I didn’t get a response.  I started wondering if I should send her a letter.  I was able to find an address.  I started the letter and then I stopped.  I put the pen down, walked away and that was that.  Or so I thought. Continue reading “Nexy Jamin & The Summer of 2014 Part II”

How To Lose $200 & Learn To Trust Yourself – Part II

“We now return you to a post already in progress.”  If you’re just joining the fun, feel free to head to my home page and check out Part I of this post.  Or you can start from here and be mildly confused.  Both are great options.

I’m a carb kid.  I was not prepared for the week long sugar detox. The body aches, the sweats, the headaches, the wearing two shirts, a sweater, a hoodie and flannel pants with two pairs of socks while under a down comforter, chills.  No one told us about that part.  No one brought it up in class for fear of looking weak.  We were a “family”.
Continue reading “How To Lose $200 & Learn To Trust Yourself – Part II”